In the UK a hundred thousand people a year suffer a stroke, including ten thousand under the age of fifty. Stroke is the third largest cause of death, and is the largest cause of adult disability.

A stroke is a serious medical condition that occurs when the blood supply to the brain is disturbed. Like all organs, our brain needs the oxygen and nutrients provided by our blood to function properly. If the supply of blood is restricted or stopped, brain cells begin to die. This can lead to brain damage and possibly death. Following a healthy diet, taking regular exercise, drinking alcohol in moderation and not smoking will dramatically reduce the risk of having a stroke.

Some strokes are caused by a brain haemorrhage – as in my case - but most are caused by a clot on the brain. All strokes are different, but they are all characterised by damage to one side of the brain,

Many stroke survivors will require a period of rehabilitation. Some people have major damage and some are only slightly affected. Some make a full recovery and some are left with some degree of disability. Sometimes memory, language or outlook on life are affected, as well as physical function. The variations are endless.

NHS Choices - Stroke Introduction

The Stroke Association

This is what happened to me . . .

It is the most awful headache I have ever had. At lunch-time I just have to go to bed. Jade-green T-shirt. The headache gets worse and worse and I am sick. At about 8 o’clock I can’t move my hand. Alan says ‘Don’t be silly: you must have trapped a nerve or something.’ …Soon I can’t move my arm either. ‘I think we need some help,’ he says.

Emerald green. The ambulance man says, ‘I’m afraid you’ve had a little stroke, dear.’ Red blanket. Bumping. Cold air. An engine starts. I try to speak but the words are flapping around in my head like fish on dry land and I can’t catch them. I stop trying and lie still as the ambulance drives…Completely lucid ….blue … I am in a big tube. Criss-cross. Loud noise …. Waiting ... Alan …I think he is holding my hand … I am very tired but not frightened … I wonder what will happen next…Completely lucid …

My daughter Erika is here. I can’t see her but I know she is here, but not Kate. I can hear people talking but it is a long way off and nothing to do with me.…getting so tired … I can’t hang on …. I know I am dying …. But Kate isn’t here. I can’t leave her without saying good-bye. There is blackness - and then she comes …

I’m in another ambulance. I can see the upper storeys of the shops … I think I know where they are taking me ….Why are they going this way?

….. a deep, deep bed .…Pink room … yellow sunshine to my right … Erika’s friend Sue is there. She has brought flowers … Why does she look so frightened? No words come.

Black sleep ….Thirsty … I smell terrible. ‘You smell terrible’, Alan says. … So thirsty … Alan wets my mouth with a pink sponge and I suck … the bed is so deep ……

My brother Richard is here, and Erika. I can hear them reading out cards. What an awful jacket he is wearing! …


After those first six days when I was only intermittently conscious, my thoughts and my vision began to be less fragmented and the world made sense for longer and longer periods. I could not speak - the words still flapped about - but in my head I was lucid.

The fact that I couldn’t move my right arm and leg didn’t at that stage seem very important.

Stroke 1 (detail) (2007), multi media

Stroke 1 (detail) (2007), multi media

A few days after I came home from hospital, I was looking in the drawer for a pair of socks to wear. Most of the socks were jumbled up because, at that stage, I was barely able to pair socks up because my right hand was barely working. But at the back of the drawer there was a pair that was beautifully rolled.

This ‘before’ pair seemed a metaphor for the brain and its perilous order.

Brain landscape, landscape brain, soft ground etching

Brain Landscape, Landscape Brain, soft ground etching

As a result of the stroke, my brain was disordered and my body didn’t work as it had done. A disaster? Yes. But this experience has also been a great source of creative inspiration. Different ways of looking at the same thing?

Damage 3, multi media

Damage 3, multi media

The confusion of broken pathways and the confusion of not understanding what is happening.

Dendrites, etching

Dendrites, etching

Sparks in the brain! Contrary to previous thinking, advances in neuroscience indicate that the brain is capable of ‘re-wiring’ itself by finding new pathways, despite the damage in a specific area. This neuroplasticity means that some degree of recovery, though not guaranteed, of course, can be possible.

An Event (detail), multi media

An Event (detail), multi media

Some months after The Event, I had an MRI scan. I asked to see the images. There was a big white patch in my brain. Very, very shocking. But I was already making progress…..

Unravelling (2008), graphite on paper

Unravelling (2008), graphite on paper

As a result of the stroke, the ‘wiring’ of my brain was disordered and my body didn’t work as it had done. On the other hand, this experience has been a great source of creative inspiration.

So is this drawing about the falling apart of what was once in order? Or is it about disentangling what is in disorder? Or is it both?

Stroke 1 (detail) (2007), multi media An Event (detail), multi media
Brain Landscape, Landscape Brain, soft ground etching Damage 3, multi media
Brain Attack 3 (2007), b/w photograph Unravelling (2008), graphite on paper
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